Yawn... Hmm... It's 5.30pm now, n im so cant wait to go home! im freaking sleepy! i slept at 12.00am last night...i dragged myself off my bed n went shower... dear send me at telepark.. the moment i placed my ass on his van.. I fell asleep... at telepark bus stop, i took no. 67 to bedok Mrt... same thing... the moment i placed my fat ass on the seat.. i fell a sleep... good thing i a smart ass, know how to estimate when to get up.. if not... i dun noe whr the hell the bus gonna bring me to... haiz..... and wea.. i reached bedok, wait fer transport n read my book...

Im facing a huge problem now... very very big, fat prob.. im so upset, it making me feel super terrible, super disappointed, super.... haiz... dun how to descrid... wanna know wad's my prob...? I'm consipated! i cant shit! my tummy damn blotted! urgh! urgh! urgh!!! i juz dun noe wad to do now.... i try to eat food tat im not suppose to eat, i ate fruits, i drink milo all the possible food that ould help me to SHIT! but... nothing happen yet! urgh.... very frustrating!!!

Ouh Yerp... it's almost 12 n im still awake... Ya...wad the hell rite...
Niwea... i dun noe y i cant clep today... probably, sumting COCKED up today, n im feeling super FUCKED up! till now... im feeling super FUCKED up!! urggghhhh.....
another thing... i gues.. i will be moving on to my new desk, later as.......
MY NEW GURL JUZ QUIT! wit a some stupid reason! urgh! there goes my weekend off which i've been looking forward fer!! UUURRRGGHHH!!! and 1 more thing....!! I dun noe if i should feel happy? sad? excited? disappointed? or... feeling like shit to my upcoming OBS camp! urgh! yerp! OBS! dar tua2 gi OBS... haiz... I think... wad ever obstetrical i will be going thur.... it will be full wit... SCREAMMmmmmmmmzzz!!! TRUST ME!

I found my song of the week... hehhe... kinda obses wit it... LOL...

’Closed off from love
I didn?t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you?re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone?s looking round
Thinking I?m going crazy

But I don?t care what they say
I?m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don?t know the truth
My heart?s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing?s greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I?m going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don?t care what they say
[

[ Bleeding Love song text brought to you by LyricsYouLove ]
I?m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don?t know the truth
My heart?s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it?s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I?ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don?t care what they say
I?m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don?t know the truth
My heart?s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open and I
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love’

wooohooo...!!! juz relaised, i didnt blogg fer so long... LOL\
anywea... i wanna wish my BABY DEVIL Happy 21st Birthday..... I own u 1 prezzi heheheh
stay beautiful n glam always....



im at hm now... being a gud gurl.. did fileing, housekeeping n I cooked today... hahahha wad a good wife.last night at hm.. i had a Goood time wit dear... it's a shhhhh... tingy... dear is so happy n waiting fer the arrival fer his new "wife"

Things had been not on my family side lately.... 1st was mama fell very sick and now... Along facing too many seriouse issue. Any way long.... we will be behind u in everyting u do. And if anyting is to happen to u... we, the Tengku Family (including tat keling boyan) will be on urside... I PROMISED!

owrite, today is a Random Monday.... Mum is in the office, this week our off days are like ROJAK... hahahah Im off tmr coz sending mama to KK fer her check up. N friday.. no plans yet.. Most prob will be cooking some good food n invite my parents over fer dinner... hehehehh....

Today Lunch we gurl went bonkerz... hahah.. Mayling was paranoid by some stupid voimit smell ard her.Mum and I were as usual... being crazy... we took tis shots!



check out my sponge-bob look

My Chincilla died tiz morning.... an ultimate shocking thing happened me tiz morning. yesh...!! my precious Rocky died... sob sob.... I juz dun noe wad to do... I had to leave the body in the cage n wait fer dear to clear it up.... OMG! this is so hurting... now i left wit freezy only.... I promise i will take care of u boi....

Anyway... i juz got back frm Jln Kayu, had dinner wit dear der... on our way der.... we had a mini argument, well since it's so hard fer us to get it... we might as well forget bout it. I dun want becoz of sum stuff... we keep on quarreling like tiz. it's suckz! UrGh!!! I've tried my very best to make it happen... u juz have to be patience ok sayang.... Thing doesn't comes easy... we got to take it slow... no rush....

Today is thursday... as usual, it's the guys drinking session... they are coming over today for the weekly meet up. I will be see my devil sister today too... *wink* btw... I miss Bum bum so much... maybe tmr u can join us... let me noe if u want to k... ok ok... after much discussion... tmr plan is...

8.00am - 12.00pm : still ZZzzzzZzzz (mcm babi)
12.30pm - 1.30pm : wakie wakie n doll up
1.45pm - 2.00pm : out of d hse - meet Linda at cycle & carriage
3.00pm onwards : the crazy gurls out fer shopping!!! hurray!!!

It’s another one of those day when I lay on my bed,
but never seem to be able to get to sleep no matter how hard I try.
I keep on trying to tell myself “Don’t think about anything and to get to sleep!”
And somehow, I end up thinking about how to stop my mind from wandering.
Ppl say.... i think too much but what can i say, I'm a typical gurl, who think bout necessary stuffz.

It is a phase everyone goes through I guess.
Thinking about everything in life.
Thinking about how your life is going to be in future.
Thinking about all the disappointments you have experienced before and now....
I juz had myself tested on the DYI pregnancy test kit. As usual, it's NEGATIVE!!! I was so disappointed n BUSTED out CRYING!!!! good thing Dear was around to console me. He gave me a huge cuddle n eventually he made me feels better of coz!!
Every time when someone asks me when I’ll be a mother,I’ll feel extremely depressed.
I hate it when people tell me :
“It’s okay. you're still so young, still got long long way to go. Enjoy ur honeymoon peirod while you can"

It's like... WADEVER ar... try to in my situation n let's see how u handle it!
OK! enough of my depressing soap opera life story. Let's move on....

Today had a long2 meeting wit my high participation colleague. but it's owrite, I seems to enjoy it... heheheh. I juz Love my colleague so much!! hahahha i dun noe Y, but im so devoted to my job! hahaha u might think tat im CRAZY, but they really roxz my life! hahahahhahha NSC is my 2nd home... LOL!! (wait till sumting happen and it's gonna be the 1st Hell!!!) hahahahhahahhaha

After werk, had dinner wit mummy at Century square, we had Japanese Food n it roxz my smelly sox!! hahahhahah Den, i went to BK get Dear's dinner n he fetch me at the traffic light... and now... at home, blogging while Dear doing his werk in the living room as usual..... (i'm kinda used to him werking at hm rather den spending long2 hours in the office)

Soon,Jamillah n Mabok will be coming over and.... (ding dong) here they ARE!!! hahhahah they are here... they will be having drink2 party and i will juz sip on my plain water.... hahhaha see... how gud am I....

K lar... i gtg.... going to join them now... tata....

Thanks fer reading my blog... Gud NighT!!

First n for most.... wanna wish my 11 years of friendship wit my bestie.....

HARYANA ABDULLAh......
SElamt HAri Tua!!!! semoga di panjangkan umur dan di murahkan rezeki....
wish u all the best in everyting u do n LOVE u LOADZ!!!!!
don't think can go out wit her today... coz i knew tat she got loadz n loadz of appointment... but it's okie... maybe some other day k babe.....





SEcondly... i cant wait fer the arrival of my new CAR!!!! ouh yesh! a CAR!!! weeeeee.... yesterday Dear told me tat we might be getting the car last this month or early next month... HURRAY!!!! I Liok....!!! and we decided on WHIT Mitsubishi LAncer!!! wakakakkakakkak happy giler babe! as usual.. i dont have the intention to take my driving lesson coz.. KUKU like me... will never sussced. TRUST me! hahha...

Thirdly.... i hate to say this.. but... SSF is organising a TEAM BUILDING CAMP!!! uuurrrghhh!!!!!! I HATE IT!!! TAK NAK...!!! TAKOT!!! Arrarrarrrrrrgggghhhhhhh....!!! it will be a 2days 1 night OBS camp at ... PULAU UBIN!!! F*** it! i hate it! urgh! gonna miss slepping wit Dear... n most of all my SMELLY PILLOW!!! how do i sleep without it! how? how? how?? urgh!!

It's Been a While since my last update... I dun noe y, but i suddenly have the urge to blog.... and, der she goes.....

Today is a bz bee Monday, I took urgent leave yesterday coz mama is super sick. after her discharged frm the hospital things had change, not for the better but for the *****! but i thank god for wadever dugaan he had given us. Maybe, this is a good sign why Im not pregnant. It's not tat he hate me but.... he had given me enough fer now. Yesterday, I was talking to dear, "well, it's a good thing im not pregnant for not, u got promoted, I got promoted & most importantly mama need us. If im pregnant, It's gonna be hard fer me to move ard wit huge tummy" and dear was like "we dont know wad is coming ahead of us. god is great, he noes wen is the rite time fer it." I shut my eyes n tear..... I gott to be strong. my heart bleed wenever i look into mama eyes. It's so painful to see her suffer. but she's strong.... she kept her pain in her. so am I. wenever i felt like tearing in front of her, I will look away.... all im asking fer now is for mama to recover quickly.