It's Been a While since my last update... I dun noe y, but i suddenly have the urge to blog.... and, der she goes.....

Today is a bz bee Monday, I took urgent leave yesterday coz mama is super sick. after her discharged frm the hospital things had change, not for the better but for the *****! but i thank god for wadever dugaan he had given us. Maybe, this is a good sign why Im not pregnant. It's not tat he hate me but.... he had given me enough fer now. Yesterday, I was talking to dear, "well, it's a good thing im not pregnant for not, u got promoted, I got promoted & most importantly mama need us. If im pregnant, It's gonna be hard fer me to move ard wit huge tummy" and dear was like "we dont know wad is coming ahead of us. god is great, he noes wen is the rite time fer it." I shut my eyes n tear..... I gott to be strong. my heart bleed wenever i look into mama eyes. It's so painful to see her suffer. but she's strong.... she kept her pain in her. so am I. wenever i felt like tearing in front of her, I will look away.... all im asking fer now is for mama to recover quickly.