It's never easy..
I feel really awful now.I feel so, so helpless.
Everything doesn’t look good. I really want to make everything good.
I promised myself that I won’t cry every time friends or relatives told me that their wife or they themselves are pregnant unfortunately promises are meant to be broken. And if I am already so upset, I cannot imagine how hard it will be for my husband to keep on consoling me over and over again to tell me it’s ok…
how much more tears I have cried and pain I felt whenever my relatives says “Oh, ni anak instant ehk?!? Takpe lar.. mudah mudah ada rezeki” and as usual, I take it as a negative comment from the macik macik Kepo.
OK, Fuck the aunties the most importany is husband and me. The only person that understands where we stand now is God and us. Oh god, pls make my wish come true..
I had an awesome weekend with botak. Saturday night was filled with laughter and love. Everything he did make us smile. You complete our live baby. Even tho you are not ours, we promised the shower you with all the love we could.
Sending him back is always a major separation anxiety for the 3 of us. I was trying my very best to pat him to sleep but he refuses to even shut his eyes. As if he could sense that we are leaving him. It was 10pm and he still didn’t sleep. We had to leave. As soon as he saw us saying good bye to everyone, he quickly take his shoes and went over to me. (How smart rite? He’s only 11mths mind you) while he’s “bz” doing his stuff we quickly walk out of the gate. AND as soon as he heard the gate opened… he ran to the gate and watch husband putting on his shoes. When we walked off.. he cried out loud… and of coz, we had to come back to carry him and talk to him for a while. For the 2nd time, we have to put him down and walked away. I tear as I walked of... *major heartbreak!*
Last night,
I couldn’t even shut my eyes, I cried to sleep. I miss him so much. I really hope I won’t be having any major event this coming weekend. I really want to pick him up again.
Muhd… Baba n Mummy misses you so much…
Everything doesn’t look good. I really want to make everything good.
I promised myself that I won’t cry every time friends or relatives told me that their wife or they themselves are pregnant unfortunately promises are meant to be broken. And if I am already so upset, I cannot imagine how hard it will be for my husband to keep on consoling me over and over again to tell me it’s ok…
how much more tears I have cried and pain I felt whenever my relatives says “Oh, ni anak instant ehk?!? Takpe lar.. mudah mudah ada rezeki” and as usual, I take it as a negative comment from the macik macik Kepo.
OK, Fuck the aunties the most importany is husband and me. The only person that understands where we stand now is God and us. Oh god, pls make my wish come true..
I had an awesome weekend with botak. Saturday night was filled with laughter and love. Everything he did make us smile. You complete our live baby. Even tho you are not ours, we promised the shower you with all the love we could.
Sending him back is always a major separation anxiety for the 3 of us. I was trying my very best to pat him to sleep but he refuses to even shut his eyes. As if he could sense that we are leaving him. It was 10pm and he still didn’t sleep. We had to leave. As soon as he saw us saying good bye to everyone, he quickly take his shoes and went over to me. (How smart rite? He’s only 11mths mind you) while he’s “bz” doing his stuff we quickly walk out of the gate. AND as soon as he heard the gate opened… he ran to the gate and watch husband putting on his shoes. When we walked off.. he cried out loud… and of coz, we had to come back to carry him and talk to him for a while. For the 2nd time, we have to put him down and walked away. I tear as I walked of... *major heartbreak!*
Last night,
I couldn’t even shut my eyes, I cried to sleep. I miss him so much. I really hope I won’t be having any major event this coming weekend. I really want to pick him up again.
Muhd… Baba n Mummy misses you so much…
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11:06 AM
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